lasy monday i was really suffering from a serious food poisoning from jollibee (curse jollibee!) why jollibee?? becuase jollibee's burger stake is the last thing i ate before i had this vomitting and serious pooffing (dont know if this is the right term)...anyhow when tuesday came...things really became worse....that's when my mom started to panicked...weeeee they rushed me to the hospital at the health services in Philppine General Hospital (PGH)..when the doctor (Dr. Alfi) checked on me..he said i'll be alright for about 2-3 days...but i should be confined so that i could have an IV (dextrose) and so that my electrolates could be replaced...and so for the first time i was confined to the hospital!! weeee but since Dr. Alfi is so busy checking the other patients..he then asked us if we want to have another doctor..you know, someone close to us..and so my father recommended Dr.Uy  a pediatrician from UP manila and USA (wow ang galing noh!!>??)hours past.....i was still lying on my room, waiting for Dr.Uy to come and check on my and put my IV...after an a hour or two...there he is!! entering the room!!! and i... i waved at him (didnt know if it was the right thing to do)

just arrived (dr. uy not yet in the house...resident doctors checking on me)

dr1: whats your name?
me: sarah
mom ko: studyante yan dito (yabang unti)
me: (deep inside: noh ba yan...binanggit pa yun!)
dr2: talaga...san ka nag high school?
me: pasay city...(hindi natapos ang sinabi kasi biglang sabat ni dr2)
dr2: ah ok
me: (deep inside: yabang!!)
dr1: anong course mo and anong year mo na?
me: incoming freshmen palang po Public Health po
dr1 and dr2: aahhhhhh incoming palang!!!
dr2: (bulong bulong sakin while cheking on my churva ness) CPH ka??
        mag medicine ka ba??
me: baka po
dr2: oo maganda yung pang premed...
me: oo nga daw po eh
dr2: scholar ka????
me: (gulat na gulat) ala hindi po!! hindi po ako matalino!
dr2: ahhh medyo lang???
me:opo medyo lang (tawa unti)

lumabas ang dalawa.....


after three minutes bumalik si dr1 na tumatawa

dr1:sorry ilang taon ka na nga pala???
me: 15 1/2 po!!! (pasigaw kasi medyo malayo xa)
dr1: (gulat na gulat) ALA!!! tpos mag college ka na!! ang bata mo!!

sabay exit ni dr 1

me: (deep in side) proud na proud and yabang kasi nila



after many many hours


Dr. Uy in the house



me:( nakaupo at kakagising at medyo kakakain lang)
UY: (pumasok na medyo gulat) (kasama si dr1,dr2 at panibgong dr3)
me: (nag wave ng hands skanya at nakangiti)
UY: ala may sakit ka ba???!!
me: (tumingin kay mama)
UY: ala parang wala kanamang skit ah!!
me: (todo explain)
UY: hindi sus ang lakas lakas na eh!!
me: (deep inside gustong sapakin si dr. uy)
dr1: UP xa
UY: anong course mo?
me: public health po
UY: (payabang na sinagot) oh pagkatapos mo mag gradaute ano ka????
me: (gulat na gulat, di alam ang sasabihin...inaaaway ako ng dr???)
dr2: mag med daw xa
UY: oh??? puwede ba ang public health na premed???
dr1 dr2 dr 3: oo sir puwede yun noh!!
UY: BAKIT KA MAG DODOCTOR???????
ME: (MEDYO GALIT NA PERO NAKATAWA PA) HINDI KO NGA DIN PO ALAM EH
UY: ANO BA YAN BABAE MAG DODOCTOR...HINDI KA NAMAN MAKAKAPUNTA NG AMERICA NYA! MAG NURSING AT MAG PT ka nalang!!
ME: HINDI NAMAN PO AKO PUPUNTA NG AMERICA EH

lahat ng nasa kuwarto: tawa tawa tawa tawa

UY: O SIGE GANITO NALANG....umuwi ka nalang!!
me:( deep inside: ano ba yan kakadating ko lang papauwiin na ko dito!!!)


SO AYUN .....mga kalahating araw lang ako sa hospital! pag labas ko ng hospital bigla akong nilagnat!! HAYNAKO ewan ko ba!!!! pero ok na ko ngayon!!!

    some people say i am perfect, in such a way they appreciate me and the things that i have achieved, i even hear some parents hoping that there daughters or there sons were just like me and sometimes i hear my colleagues wishing that they would be like me..... to my self i am not perfect but to some people i am, to others i am almost perfect except for one thing...i wouldn't mension whats that "one thing" that makes me not perfect. but hey no one is perfect...every human being in this world is just sinful like the others...

    i am proud of what i am and for the things that i have achieved...graduated as one of the leaders in our class, being a salutatorian, passing both ustet and upcat which take note one of the biggest schools in our country, reaciving mails from different schools and asking me if i would want to be there scholars and etc----is isnt enough....to my inspirations... this things aren't enough....and that is why i am hurting... this things are not enough....

    why can't they just appreciate me and for what i am. just because of that "one thing" they judge me and discriminate me as if i never did any good of them...parang nakakahiya para sa kanila na i'm one of them..that i'm part of them...

    i used to strive hard for them..but now...i'm gonna do things for myself and for the others who believe in me.... its sad to know that this supposed to be "inspirations" of mine are the ones who are pulling me down....



<prove them wrong sarah...prove them wrong>

                "hindi lahat ng nababasa ay kailangang tanggapin ng iyong isip"


 just think first...think

waaaaa right now i'm suffering from a stiff neck!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu it really hurts you know!!!!!!!! i just hope that tomorrow when i woke up...it will be gone!!! huhuhuhu anyways i have nothing much to say....hey wait.. have you noticed my picture on the side bar??? well that picture was taken by me....dont you think its over dramatic??? parang ang landi ko noh???? but to be honest, i do really like it....ok naman diba??? well  that picture is not the only one...actually its about 20 of them...i did it out of boredom...huhuhuhuhuhhuhu magisa lang kasi ako sa house!! but seriously, its ok right????

last thursday i had my second orrientation and it is entittled umPHisa which was sponsored by the PHSC or the public health student council. well it was really fun.. we had this group dynamics that helped us to know each other...heheheh actually its more of a aquintance party or a getting to know party than an orrientation....anyways after our major three group dynamics. a med student discuss the realities of our country.. and while he was discussing, every one was like so quite...as in!!! but then since the topic was so serious, our speaker and the other University Student Council (USC) thought that we are starting feel afraid hehehehehe pero hindi naman!! hehehehe but the funny thing is they are trying so hard to make a joke of it... but in the end it would always be serious...as in deep serious....anyways....back to the getting to know part... we had our class picture taken already (heheh excited noh) and our batch picture taken hehehehe grabe ang bilis namin noh!!! hayyy i still remember few weeks ago i was totally crying about me going to UP....but know..i'm really starting to like it!!!

 change topic  ...  change topic  ...  change topic  ...  change topic  ...  change topic 

i'm here now at kathleen's house, using kathleen's computer and kathleen's internet.. waheheheheh....well today is out barkada trip and were suppose to watch the da vinci code in cinemas but due to the lack of our money and of course da vinci code is a r18 movie...we decided to just make tambay at our tambayan which is kathleen's house...wahehhehehe i'm so excited (kaya nga ako yung nauna dito) wahehehhe well while waiting for the others, si kathleen ay naliligo sa taas, ako eto...nag ba-blog...waehhehehehehe...  and by the way the bad morning was now gone...aheheheh tangap ko na...ahihihihihihihihihihi........

anyways...last night i was so depressed well not because of my bad morning but because i missed watching grey's anatomy.. kasi it was my cousin's despedida party so we really have to spend the night with her...hay sana talaga mapanood ko yung replays sa sunday...anyways speaking of cousins, while my cousin; ate rouenna is leaving my other cousing; ate abigail just came home from england...kainis nga...ate abigail or abby has this tiny voice, tiny body yet big lips....para xang si tweety bird.... kainis...she treats me like a baby...haynako..kainis...kung alam lang nya...hay....i really hate it when people treats me like a baby...as if i look like one???? haynako...kainis talaga....

whom among you have heard the song STUPID GIRL by pink? and whom among you have watch her video??? well i know a lot of ladies and teenagers were offended by it but i think, what she had showed in her video was the absolute truth.....and i also agree with her when she said that "not being yourself is stupid"

    last night my brother and i watch the Oprah primetime show, a popular talk show in america which talks about different issues in a person's life. Last night's topic was about how teenage girls of todays are obsess of being a STUPID GIRL which means trying so hard to be like the celebrities such as Nicole and Paris Hilton. And i totally agree on what their guest a former video dancer said that "Ladies have their own issues that leads them to do those crazy things. And some of the issues is that when males call you stupid, you started to think that hey, maybe i am stupid and started to act like one.." and as i continue to watch the show, i learned a lot of things and sort of felt pity for those whom i know has the character of being the STUPID GIRL.....

    and as the show goes by my brother (a psychologist) explained to me some things on why a lot of teenagers are trying to be like those celebrities and he said that in the stage of being a teenager you are finding your true identity, your finding out what's the best for you or what's the thing that fits you and etc. that is why you are trying a lot of things such as "BORROWING IDENTITIES" from other people that are older than you.....   

    and then i started to think weather am i borrowing the identity that i have..and if i am really borrowing it, from whom? but then i realized that i am not borrowing anyone's identity....i realized that this is me...this is who really i am...and if there was to blame for my identity, i think it would be my parents...and that's why i really thank them because they raise me up and mold me to be what i am now.......